September Blues

Almost at the end of September pay-day is just in sight which heralds the end of another month.  September.   How can I assess September?

On the bright side the weather has been beautiful perhaps not quite an Indian summer but some beautiful balmy days and the colours are amazing as we move from summer into autumn.  Yet its been another month when family and friends have had some really tough challenges and loses.  You feel so much for them yet feel helpless as you can’t wave a magic wand to make it better as much as you want to.  And there have been times this month I have very much wanted to act as God and make things better.

This also always makes me annoyed at myself for days when I have been feeling blue at the every day ups and downs of life.  But we do don’t we?  As hard as we try not too.  So its been a month when there have been nights I have been sitting to write my grateful thing for the day and faced a black blank wall!  Before giving myself a tough talking too and a reality check!  Though one day my grateful thing of the day was getting to my bed!

Other resolutions?  Well weight wise at one point I was a pound below my original target weight and I am now hovering either below or slightly above it.  Tempted to lose a few more pounds that would get me lighter than I have been since my 20’s but also conscious that you can lose too much.  So in reality it’s all about maintaining the weight I am now. I certainly feel fitter and healthier for it. Plus its wonderful to reach for jeans and not look at the size.

Last month money wise was one we managed just to get to the end of it.  I said last month I had reverted to cash.  So I decided this month I would just use cash all month and avoid switching.  My sister asked the key word “Why?” Having felt quite smug about my decision I was quite taken a back.  Then I thought “Yes she is right.  Why?”  So I thought about it and came up with the key reason.   I am using cash to set and stick to a budget and know what I am actually spending every week.  When its gone it gone no reaching for the plastic.  So I set a weekly budget and that is it for the week.  I was hoping to save from this.  So far sadly no.   There is always an emergency usually for the kids when I need any surplus cash.  But I am sticking to it for at least another month.   I have  learnt more about where and how our money goes each month.  It’s not making me feel rich but I do know what money I am working with every week.

The plus side about September has been Books.  I have had a bumper month of wonderful books all of which I recommend.  As I said its been a month where the realities of life have hit people around me and I have struggled watching this.  Yet reading and walking especially with morning walking friends have been my solace.  Thanks to my walking friends and thanks for books.  September books are:

1. A tale for the time being – A diary written by a Japanese girl is washed up on the shores of a Canadian Island.  A writer on the Island reads the diary is the girl still alive or killed in the tsunami?

2. After Flodden – Set as the title suggests after the famous battle.  A story that draws you in with characters who come alive in your mind and live with you afterwards but also fascinating take of this time in history.  Left me wondering some what if’s including what would have happened if England had invaded Scotland?

3. Professor of Truth – Fiction set around the Lockerbie disaster a professor whose wife and children die in the plane bomb doesn’t believe the man jailed for it was the bomber.  It doesn’t answer who did it but it does take you to what might have happened.  I can still remember the night the plane went down that Christmas December and the aftermath and this was an interesting read.

4. The husband’s Secret – Saw a newspaper book review for this and thought it sounded good chick lit and sometimes I like to read this.  It wasn’t.  This was a clever look at Sydney’s suburbia and the secret was not what you thought it was nor was the follow out.

5. Accidental Apprentice – Written by the author of Slum dog Millionaire.  A young Indian woman who is struggling to support her mother and sister is approached in a Temple by a millionaire Chief Executive.  He offers her his job if she will complete seven tasks a rollercoaster follows – brilliant.

September a balmy golden month masked with an icy chill that we only have one life so we need to live it.


About fionadranesblog

40 plus mum of two married with a mad cocker spaniel. Along with two colleagues run Bright Light Marketing a rural marketing agency who specialise in getting rural businesss noticed. Live in St Boswells in the wonderful Scottish Borders. Love books, walking and living life to the full here in the Scottish Borders though its sometimes a juggle!
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