Well today started well enough though its funny how isolating not having a car is. It’s not that I wanted to go anywhere its just that I can’t go anywhere. You do feel a bit strange as the whole time I have lived here apart from minor exceptions I always have had a car to drive around with.
There were some highlights today. Firstly a very good friend took me out for lunch to Woodside to cheer me up. Woodside is a garden centre with great plants and a wonderful coffee shop 20 minutes drive from here. It was great to be able to just have a chat and a laugh and just escape for an hour. So you know who you are a huge thank you I really appreciated it.
It was also a wonderful day today blue sky and the sun actually had some heat in it. So I decided to take the dog for a quick walk in between work as you don’t get days like this very often and you need to even get out in them for a little while if you can. Well I forgot that its been very rainy here recently and confess that I was covered with mud by the time I got to the Tweed in fact the kids would have laughed at me as I was caked in the stuff. But it was worth it to be down by the river on a glorious day and then the phone rang.
It was my husband to say that Wanda our dearly beloved Honda had been written off. Well as I said yesterday I was not ready to say goodbye and I confess I was gutted. Yes she was a piece of tin but she was our piece of tin and as my daughter said when I broke the news “No other car will smell like Wanda after all my sick”. I walked along the Tweed and cried my eyes out. I guess I was saying goodbye to a car who had served us well and given us lots and lots of happy memories. But you know I am feeling weary just now. I am weary of this long winter with its constant stress and all the bills we have had to contend with from the roof, heating, pipes to the cars. I am weary of this current economy of working just as hard if not more but getting a whole less back and I am weary of the constant worry just to keep afloat. And I am weary of trying to be cheerful and thinking things will improve and then the next thing hits you. So down by the river I just cried my eyes out for Wanda and all of the above.
Then I opened my eyes looked around me. Saw the dog chasing a stick. Looked at the river and the Eildons and the beautiful day and gave thanks again. As what the past few years has taught me is to value what you do have. And Wanda I want to thank you for all the memories, for not just being a car to us. But as the same friend who took me out for lunch said for being a hero in your last act and keeping my husband safe. I never ever wanted someone else to own you and I guess they never will now. Just one proud owner of Wanda the Honda of St Boswells RIP. I’m going to miss you.